2010

Wow 2009 is almost over...
This year has been a True experience for me...
I found out what love felt like and what it feels like to get your heart broken
I learned what it takes to be a true friend and who actually fall in that category
I got in undeniable trouble both at home and school and was an emotional wreck for awhile because of it,
but most importantly 2009 was the year I was able to grow the most as a person
I got to see firsthand how to handle situations and what mindset I need to have
unlike the many who write lists of resolutions for the new year, I'm not. There's no point in writing down things to change about who I am as a person when i have no true intentions of putting them into action...
But 2010 does call for a few goals that I know I will acheive
1.) be honest with myself
2.) be honest with others
3.) don't stay on facebook for more than 21 consecutive hours
(= mello

GRANTED

It's as if they have no shame ordering me around and saying whatever to my face as if I have a heart if steel and no heart and I show no emotions...and no I'm not talking about my parents...for once I actually appreciate them. These people who consider themselves my bestfriends are ending up being nothing more than a nuissance to my life. It's hard becase these are some of the people I admire the most and they're skrewing me over..all the calls wishes and gifts I've given means nothing,not that they should cause what are material items right? But I feel like I'm being swept away in all the angst...being taken, for GRANTED.

L

what iVe grown 2 realize is That in this world There Are 3 forces...
1.)Love
2.)Lust
3.)Liquor
...EveryThing is Love driven::The Love of Money...The Love of Food...the Love Of Love
Lust is The Crime Aspect of Our society...Lusting For What's 'Wrong' i guess...Sexual iMpurity & The Like
Liquor...The Addiction & Drunken slumber That Accompanies...Bacardi-Corona-Guiness...
Ask YourSelf...Are the 3L's Leading your Life?, or did Yu Break Free From the Pack?

In My Mind...

Right Now In MY mind...
-I'm Thinking About
.........my sophmore year beginning
..........friends that are no longer here with me
........people whove betrayed me and ive betrayed
..........getting journalism on my schedule!!
-I'm Yearning For
..........SomeOne 2 Love
..........SomeOne 2 Care
..........SomeOne 2 Need, And Who Needs Me
-Current Musical Status
..........Did You Wrong by Pleasue P
..........Waiting On the World 2 Change by John Mayor
..........Jai Ho by The Pussycat Dolls

Lock && Key

Looking back on freshman year I think about soccer season...i think about drama with my friends, and a relationship that messed up Me as a person.
The Words of The song "Have You Ever" played in My Head Often...Now i realize that my proclaimed independance was really me being enslaved undercover. I made choices that aren't "right", but it's the mistakes you learn from...Not Perfection. Ive realized what friends will help me Get To my goals...&& which ones will help me fall flat on my...Ive Uncovered the Real Me By Taking A hidden KEY and UNLOCKING my good judgment. I'm ready 2 rep my class 2012 to the fullest with my TRUE friends this time. I love yall.

<3 Mel

BAD THRILLER 1958-2009

the KING OF POP michael joseph jackson is GONE. we know him as the black that turned white child molesting crazy dancing abuse victim. we also know him as the most famous pop star in like EVER with the highest record sales to date for THRILLER nd his edgyness with original dancemoves including the MOONWALK. his NEVERLAND estate is like a dreamhome and his music is playd on iPods nationwide [including mine]
he is a MAJOR LEGEND and his sudden death struck a loose cord 4 many around the nation. i feel the music industry has lost one of their best pioneers and all i can do is PRA HE OWNS HIS OWN MUSIC CATALOG SO IS CHILDREN WILL B ABLE 2 REAP THE BENEFITS OF HIS SOARING ALBUM SALES HE'S RECIEVING NOW.
R.I.P MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON MY FELLOW VIRGO SUPASTAR 1958-2009

Heartbreak&&Cake

we lasted from march 26th till june 16th r second tym going 2gether. i thought r relationship was going well despite the occasional rumors. i was content until i found out there was another girl involved. i thought his love was true, but i surely got fooled. i got played bigtime. all the i love yous and deep conversations were obviosly a front. he was the cake nd i was the hot chocolate. the first guy i actually cared about...maybe even loved, and he skrewd me over. i'm tryna deal...but it's hard. it'll all get better in time i presume. my heart is filled with deep sorrow and regret for trusting someone who is waaaay below my standards. heartbreak and cake. dang. :(

Sadness.

it truely upsets me when i share my dreams and aspirations, my goals nd my future nd i get shunned.
being accused of following the crowd nd not having a mind of my own. why do i bother trying? wats the point if no1 believes in me? wat can i do 2 make people c me? everything i do is being claimed as som1 elses crap. h8 this feeling...this sadness.

YES WE CAN!

WE OFFICIALLY HAVE A NEW PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES!
IT'S VERY HEARTWARMING TO HEAR HIM SAY HIS OATH AND KNOW THAT HIS JOURNEY TO THE PRESIDENCY WASN'T IN VAIN. HE DESERVED A WIN AND I HAVE FAITH AND HOPE THAT HE WILL DO HIS BEST TO HELP THESE UNITED STATES.
MY HEART IS COMPLETELY INSPIRED TO ACHIEVE, RECEIVE, AND DO ME.
ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE WHEN WE BELIEVE, AND ...YES WE CAN!

InAuGurAtioN

Wow! We as a people have elected our first African American (not black), but African American president. It's so cool that our president is not only qualified, but he is articulate, kind, a firm believer, honest, cool, and hey-what the heck, he's African American too!
Obama had to deal with the horrid words from Hillary Clinton, John McCain and (of course) the wonderful (nawt) Sarah Palin. He didn't retaliate, but instead stood his ground and kept to his awesome politics. Thus winning him the goal; the PRESIDENCY.
Today we can stand up and celebrate the beginning of a new mark in history. I'm proud that around noon today, I can call Barack Obama our president (officially). I know that just because he will be the president doesn't mean that the world's financial woes will be forgotten or things will be a thousand times better. As a matter of fact, things will get worse before they get better. But, I do know that in time we will become the America that Barack believes in, and I believe in.
ThankYou President Barack Obama.

President Elect...Melanie Otto

My dream, a dream...THE DREAM: President
I believe I can achieve the impossible, the plausible...
My future home waits: the GRAYhouse
*Check on this post next week for the full story*
GOD BLESS THE USA!

::Hypnotized::

Hypnotized.
my life speeding past me
i'm left without a clue
why me?
Hypnotized.
Seeing thee for thee first time
lost in thought
a blank stare
wanting to see more,
hear more,
brown eyes glossed over
Hypnotized.

The Dream

not the american dream.....i want to b the 1 who struts down the catwalk workin' what i got. america's next top model has been my favorite show since cycle 1...it has served as an inspiration with skinny to plus size, black to white, and everything in between. Modeling is a world that has its difficulties, but it is also a community to express yourself in the mean so FASHION, V.O.G.U.E

Obama and Beyonce'

i just had the time of my life yesterday at the inauguration concert for obama. it's amazing to see an african american like obama become president. many people think that all blacks are ghetto and can't achieve anything spectacukar in their lifetime, and obama proved those haters wrong. he won his presidency against john mc cain; with the help of many white americans i might add. obama is the definition of a true inspiration and i admire him deeply. i also got to see me role model of 6 years Beyonce'. i cried when she sand america at the closing. ive wanted to see beyonce' in concert for awhile and it was like a dream come true. she looked very prefessional and i liked the darker hair color she had. yesterday was spectacular.......obama and beyonce'...